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I flop between emotions: between laughter at all the funny memes that have surfaced- congratulations internet, you remain undefeated

And the eerie silence after hearing more depressing news about the number of deaths and casualties suffered.

I flip between fierce faith as I pray for this to end and people to be safe

And that little rising panic from the unknown of when this will all be over.

I flop between great thankfulness that I'm okay

 And longing for the day this will all be a strange, distant memory

I flip between enjoying the peace of being at home

 And forcing myself not to dwell on the trapped feeling that I sometimes wake up with

I flop between hope that grows big and bright as I read psalms 91

 And standing behind a huge wall called Uncertainty which seems big enough to block out even the sun

I flip between gratefulness, that I live in a wealthy country with a strong free medical system, have a job that's pretty secure and access to supermarkets that have enough food (I'm absolutely throwing shade here)

 And sadness because SO many other people don't have all these things right now. 

If you can't tell by now, I have no clue how to feel during this time. But I'm deciding to keep choosing hope above it all.

 May you don't know how to feel either. That is okay.

 If you're laughing at a meme right now, good. Laughter is good.

 If you're nervous right now- that's valid too. Speak to someone, let it out. I do.

I was trying to figure out which angle to take for this post and after lots of struggling it hit me - the honest one, duh.

Continuing in the spirit of honesty, I don't feel like takings photos much these days but I do love how these images came out - up close and real personal. The Pearl Demi Hoop earrings that I'm wearing (you can find them here) are from a small, up and coming brand called Estée Lane. They're all about designing everyday elegance at a high quality, and I have to say I think they hit the nail on the head. For me the creative sweet spot is creating things that are beautiful and interesting that you can wear every day not just once in a blue moon. You can learn more about Estée Lane here https://esteelane.com/

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